Frenzy

I'm in a frenzy...a shopping frenzy.

I promised the husband that I wouldn't clean out our bank account...I'm trying very hard to keep that promise...heh heh...

Ok ok, I sound like such a tai tai right? But I'm NOT! I've just been deprived...deeply deprived for so long. Imagine an animal that has not been fed for a long time. Release it out into a rich environment full of things it likes and it will go crazy.

I know most people have this very nice, romantic idea of Europe and I don't dispute that but sometimes it feels like it is a little too fashionable for me. I am quite picky when it comes to clothes and I don't always wear what is most fashionable at the moment. Take jeans for example. Skinny jeans are all the rage right now but that's so not me. I'm not that huge a girl but I'm not particularly small either and I do have thunderous thighs which bother me no end as do other trouble spots. I've always believed in wearing something comfortable or at least flattering even if it's not the most fashionable look (which incidentally causes my brother to call me a fashion victim sometimes but what does he know? He's colourblind and needs help to NOT pick out garish colours cos that's all the colours he can see!).

So I prefer to wear bootcut jeans which balances out the thunder thighs quite effectively. But with skinnies dominating the shelves, it's next to impossible to find bootcut jeans that look nice and fit me well simply cos the selection has shrunk to a mere fraction of the jeans collection. So call me crazy but I went mad when I walked into Dorothy Perkins (haven't found a DP store in Sweden so far) last night and found bootcut jeans that look great on me at a FANTASTIC price! I bought 2 pairs straightaway which cost me only a little more than when I bought just one pair at Giordano (and that place has become too trendy for me. You guessed it, skinnies and straight cuts galore!). I spent a good part of the hour getting the salesgirl helping me to get pair after pair after pair of jeans and pants, all the while wondering what the husband would say if he was here (nothing if he knew what is healthy for him but I digress).

So now I can cross out jeans from my To Get list. As my dearest and nearest know, I am a list girl. I list down everything just to have some sort of order to my messy life. So coming to Singapore, I had a few lists of cos. I've crossed out most things on my To Get list but I'm still a woman deprived of retail theraphy so the To Get list has lots of space at the bottom just waiting to be filled. The To Makan list grows almost everyday but I have made it a point to eat something new at every meal and so far the only thing that I have eaten twice is prata, nasi lemak and the seafood platter at Fish & Co (they are just too good for me to pass up). I'm sure I have a To Do list lying around somewhere but seeing how my To Get and To Makan list keeps me so occupied both night and day, I keep forgetting I have a 3rd list, and worse, I'm not sure how long that list is. Hee hee!

I'm not looking forward to having to take that loooooong plane ride back to Sweden but all good things must come to and end. My sis in law wants me to extend my stay in Singapore till the end of the month but as much as I'm ACHING too, I must always keep in my mind that I do have a husband waiting for me in faraway Sweden and I need to consider his needs as well. I've missed us celebrating our first Hari Raya as a married couple and my birthday and our first year anniversary looms ahead in 2 weeks so I feel a mass of conflicting emotions that keeps me confused and guilty. It'll probably be a year until I'm able to come back to Singapore and Malaysia to visit my family and especially my nieces whom I love to pieces so I feel like I want to spend as much time with them as possible. I see my husband everyday and us being apart like this will no longer be the norm. But the guilt comes because I miss so much of the important events in our lives during this short month that I am in Singapore. Hai...I'll work things out, that much I know, and in the meantime, I'll be enjoying all that I can...mmmm....shopping...food.... Singapore is so great compared to Sweden because of the variety lah. I like!