Firmly set in late 20s..

Today is my birthday. Well, technically my birthday was over about 5 minutes ago but as long I'm still awake, the day is not over yet.

Turned 27 and I think my life is right on track. Well, as good along the track as life can get with all its twists and turns.

I've never been one to think about my career. As a matter of fact, I'm still not sure what I want to do with my life. Aren't people supposed to know by the time they reach adulthood? Or at least by the time they are in their late 20s. But I digress...better get back on the track.

Why do I say I'm on schedule? Isn't that a rather sweeping statement? Does it not imply complete contentment and satisfaction and who ever truly is? Don't get me wrong, I'm not entirely satisfied with life, especially if I choose to look at everything with a microscope. Human beings, I think, are created with one thing in mind...hope. Now never underestimate the power of Hope. So many people work so hard in the hopes of a better life, a higher salary, a bigger car or house. A man hopes his boss will promote him, a woman hopes for a diamond ring, a child hopes to get that coveted toy. Everyone hopes and hope floats everyone.

If I was to set aside my Hopes for just a minute, I know that I am lacking in nothing and the things that I do have make me happy and not just alive. And that is why I am right on track. I have a husband who loves me more than I can fathom, we have a nice little flat that we call home, a bitchy cat who can be the cutest thing in the world and a clean slate in Sweden where I can choose to live my life any way I like, arrange my home any way I like and choose any vocation to dive into without stress or tightness of time. So I think I'm pretty good for now, but like I've said life is full of twists and turns and things can change anytime but that is a worry I will think about when I encounter it. No point stressing about something that has not happened, right?

When I was a little girl, as with Singaporeans, I laid a little plan in my head of what my life will be like when I grow up. But unlike many Singaporeans, the one solid thing that I truly wanted had nothing to do with career, salary, material wealth or type of residence. It had to do with love, a husband, a family and lots of comfort food. Is that strange?

And now I have the most important of my hopes and can go on to consider all the other hidden hopes I had. Enrichment of mind and body, doing what interests me and being able to do it well.

My brother keeps on stressing the point that now is the time for me to try and earn as much as I can and to think of all possible business opportunities to extend my economic potential. While I agree on his point of view and his line of thinking, am I a failure if I don't try and open up some sort of business? Am I a failure if I miss that boat of opportunity? Hai...all this business talk puts my emotions into a tangle sometimes and I get confused about what I want...all over again. Maybe I'll never really know what I want out of life...but I sure like what I'm getting out of it right now.